i can feel again

and since i have felt again i have felt happiness and hope in places where one would be surprised

and i have felt "nothing" in places of old familiarity

so where am I now, and where do I go next?

yeah definitely woke up at 7 this morning, went to bed at like 2 last night. Just cant sleep again... Dont have to leave for church till...10:45-11:00 or so. It's currently 7:30. That gives me over three hours to shower, eat, and get ready. Maybe I'll clean up my room some...hmm

yeah yesterday was bundles of fun :) however my arm is still regaining its totaly "feeling" capacity after getting practically ripped off by Guth lol. Gotta have fun

and this is because I am bored . . .

ABC's quiz <3


A - Age you got your first kiss: 5 or 6 from Willy Kresch in kindergarten

B - Band listening to right now: commercial music lol

C - Crush: hmm

D- Dad's name: Mike

E- Easiest person to talk to: Zak

F - Favorite bands at the moment: Straylight Run, Iron and Wine, Yellowcard, Something Corporate, a few others...

G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: gummy worms

H - Hometown: Hawthorne, New Jersey

I-Instrument: trumpet

J- Junior High: Lecanto Middle

K - Kids: none

L - Longest car ride ever: By way of China up to Jersey once to "avoid" traffic, which amounted in nothing

M - Mom's name: Laura

N - Nicknames: Seesa, Superfrog, Beaker, lil'B, B squared

O - One wish: That you really could wish on a star and that it would come true

P - Phobia: spiders, being alone, puking, dying

Q - Quote: to give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift-steve prefontaine (because i couldnt think of anything better and that was in Nikki's info haha)

R - Reason to smile: That there are still people out there that will make you feel good, let you make them feel good, and that genuinely are good at heart and dont give in to the "world"

S - Song you sang last: Relient K - Be My Escape

T - Time you woke up [today]: 6:30

U - Unknown fact about me: I hold conversations with my stuffed animals

V - Vegetable you hate: lima beans

W - Worst habit(s): expectations set too high or too low, never right

X - X-rays you've had: teeth, kidneys, knee

Y - Yummy food: anything and everything italian

Z- Z one thing in life that you would re-do: not let myself fall in love so easily with ideas, objects, dreams, and people